September 19, 2011
What do you do when.....
Last night I was at Bible Study and a person, who doesn't know me very well and is several years younger than me, made a comment that was hurtful.
I was talking with a friend about how I had made my reservations for the Disney Princess Half Marathon and this other person, who was involved in the conversation said
"You know there's a time limit right?"
This one comment was pretty deflating. In one sentence she implied that I would be slow as to embarass myself or to not finish at all.
She also implied that I knew nothing about this race or race-culture, for that matter.
Again, it burned.
Again, I knew she wasn't trying to hurt me. But still, it was the kind of doubt that I regularly faced when I told people that I was running the Springtime Tallahassee 10K and again when I was going to climb Le Conte. They looked at my body and presumed I could not do it; presumed I was setting myself up for failure and then they pitied me.
It's the kind of thing that is a binary of criticism that is completely devasting but on the other hand it makes me so angry and wanting to prove her and others wrong. They look at me and believe I can't do it.
But I can.
Created by Elizabeth Dean at 6:05 PM